Set Fire to the Rain

TIP: If you do not own Adele's new CD 21, you need to. I have been playing it nonstop for the past 5 days. Set Fire to the Rain is the best if you don't want to buy the entire CD though.

So, most stressful, nerve wracking, emotional roller coaster of my life. I have this Portfolio Review/Interview coming up on Friday that determines if this entire first year of college has been a waste of time or not. Whether or not I may continue to pursue a Graphic Design career.

I shouldn't say that it would be a waste of a year if I don't get in. I will have learned:

1. That art is not my calling.
2. How to draw fairly well with no art class or any type of artistic background.
3. How to appreciate artists.
4. That artists are not pot heads (for the most part, at least) who create anything and call it art. They are actually super, duper smart. They really are genius's. 
5. How to be patient when doing a project.
6. How to be patient, period. 
7. That there is a difference between nude and naked.
8. I now have a steadier hand.
9. I know my way around Hobby Lobby fairly well.
10. I have also found out that art supplies are INCREDIBLY expensive. 
11. That everyone is creative. You just have to channel you child self and work you imagination back into shape.
12. Every dumb project has a tiny skill that you eventually learn.

This entire semester I have been going back and forth on if I really wanted to be a graphic designer or not. For a little while I was thoroughly convinced that this was not what I wanted to do. I wanted to help people in a different way. I wanted to be some kind of nurse, partially because I have always thought that scrubs were cute and that they are probably comfy. But, after talking with my sister she said that she kind of regrets that she didn't follow through with architecture. That she is now convinced that she got out only because she was tired with all of the projects. So, after letting that sink in for awhile I began doing research on what graphic designers do and how many different kinds of jobs you can do with that degree. It really started to get me excited again about what I was working for. I guess it's just really hard to see if this is where you want to be when you are taking classes with future Leonardo da Vinci's and Raphael's and Caravagio's that have had all of these past experiences in art and you have had none. It has slowly made sense to me that what all I have learned, and the tiny lessons in each project have really come together to make me more creative. It's something that I have really had to practice. 

Also, it has also helped because I went to talk to my advisor about double majoring in graphic design AND accounting. His first reaction, "OH! Oh... Well... First of all, they are both demanding majors that have very specific degree plans, and... well... I would be worried for your mental and physical health, plus your GPA." But after I had went and talked to a business advisor about it who said that I could take classes in the summer and stuff and then do the upper level accounting core after I get the degree in Communication Design. Although it is a little depressing that I wouldn't graduate remotely close to 4 years, it comforts me that it is possible to double major and that when I do graduate that in any town, anywhere, I would always be able to have a job. So, now that I'm really wanting to get into the Communication Design program I am worried that I won't. (I promise I'm not bipolar, to my knowledge that it.) 

My interview is on Friday at 8:40 AM. They send out the results Friday night after all the interviews are over. So, some people will get it on Saturday, and some won't get it until Monday, Tuesday, or Wednesday. I'm praying that mine comes on Saturday. I feel like I'm going to get the letter and stare at it and will be afraid to open. And once I do open it, I will cry. I will cry tears of joy or tears of sad, depression. I hope it's joy...

LIFE DECISIONS PEOPLE!

Wish me luck! :-)